Is pretty Strange!!!

The wedding is exhausting, but it is nice to see two of them complete the 11 year Marathon. Indeed, I was so envious the father and son relationship. This feeling had never came up since very very long time. My parent's marriage breakdown didn't really have a big impact on me, because I was "glad" that my mom was finally released from the "prison" and was no longer being tortured mentally. My grandparents had replaced the role of my parents throughout my childhood.

After I turned to Christ, my heavenly father filled up the missing part of my life and show me how to become a "man". It is a amazing thing to have a father like Him. However, when I saw the happiness on Paul's father while he is watching his son on the stage...I am kind of jealous. This is a picture that will never happen on me, I am not blaming Him for giving me this family history...indeed He had given me a lot a lot of blessing that I am not worth to get. Is just a strange feeling that made me quite weird.

Sense of Humor

I always have a feeling that Jesus has a sense of humor. Whatever I dislike, He will put that thing into my life. For example, I don't like tide schedule, He will keep me busy. I don't use to work with some kind of people, He will put those people around me. I hate EXAMS, but He put me in the field that requires a lot of exams...indeed, these kind of arrangement will give me opportunity to throw my own thought into the bin and experience the gracious and providing God...but honestly, it is not easy...

Not a miracle I want!!!

After Brazil STM, my joy and the excitement had been eaten up by the non-stoppable things and works progressively. Just right on the first day back from Brazil, I need to sign the closing document of the house and need to prepare the insurance and arrange to pick up the car. After that is the church and the beloved "exam".

I wasn't too worried about the exam at first, because I think serving God in STM will give me some kind of "wisdom" to pass the exam. There is enough reason to make Him help me to pass, even though I didn't have enough time to study. Consequently, the miracle had not happened...I failed. However, I don't know why the course enrolment period had been extended for one more month and it supposed to be expired after the date I wrote the exam. The extension gave me sufficient time to study again...this time I passed. God didn't give me a miracle to pass, but arrange enough time for me to study. Thanks Him...He is great!!!

睇油價返崇拜！？

最近油價不斷狂升，升到超過$150美元都指日可侍。大眾的生活自然百上加斤，左慳右慳都祇是全部奉獻給那些襯火打劫的油公司。
昨天在收音機的新聞裏，聽到人們居然因為油價高企，而停止返教會。眞是非常可悲！不知報導的來源（在680上聽到的），但那些人究竟明唔明過去敬拜的是誰呢？

結束前後

經歷了四年，回想過去有太多的回憶及學會了很多。學會了的是與這一代學生溝通的技巧，將自己對聖經的看法用他們可以理解的方式帶出；其實都不及認真地聆聽與誠懇地回應及關心他們。

Andrew的離開也是對但以理的去向來作個决定。在商量時，我們都明白到以自己的能力著實沒法應付first session好似open gym般需要作高度監視，而且多年來都看不到可以有更進步的空間。要决定是否取消。。。還未寫完這篇時，在剛過去的講道中，麥牧師用約17章耶穌的禱告作為講題。當讀到主耶穌為信徒的禱告時，心裏十分之震撼。主耶穌對父神所賜的人，一個也沒有失郤。回想我們起初定下但以理的異象，是要講來的人可以與神踏前一步：從而建立与基督的關係。但偏偏來到完結時卻沒有顧及同想到那些可能（或者準備）己屬於基督的。真是慚愧。

己下了決定我會盡力守護著那已屬主的人！縱然可能一個也沒有，但總是要想辨法找他們出來吧！求主加力！

退修會之多謝大家

明天是退修會的最後一天，真的有點不捨。當知道要付責帶領敬拜讚時，實在摸不著頭腦，為何找二位，尤其是我一個毫無音樂基礎的人去帶領。可能就因為我們並沒有可以自誇的本領，這就更突顯弟兄姊妹謙卑的事奉。

回想開始練習時，大家都很不夾。一邊需要音準拍子對，但另一方卻是講求隨心而發。如是者，過了幾次的練習，都好不了多少。但神在最後關頭都將一眾謙卑同心的子民連結在一起。雖然錯事百出，但總算順利完成。

感謝神！

大地震

星期一的早上，仍然是一如往日般看着香港新聞。不同的是在世界的另一面，發生了大地震。起初還未感受到它的殺傷力，之後在電台聽到一連驚心動魄的消息，才體會那8.0的恐怖。

星期二的早上，新聞仍是覆天蓋地般報導着那8.0。令我感到心痛的是一群父母在停屍營裏哭叫他們死去的兒女。此起彼落的喊叫真令人悲傷。

神為何袖手旁觀，靜默無言。這是天意？是刑罰？祂又怎會容許呢？相信這世上冇人識答。我祇相信祂會靠近受傷，無望者的心靈。衪的手也隨時向投向祂的人將開。求主特別地憐憫這篇大地上的人，還有很多心靈還未得到靠依。

難題的決擇

最近很煩惱，因為要決定是否答應教會的邀請。這邀請真的很難去決擇，雖然第一個反應就是“不想”。但是不願在決擇的整個過程都只是由自己去决定，完全不讓神的參與及說話的機會。

自己的不想，可以是不願放下現在的生活模式，已經on track的事奉及剩下不多的私人時間。其實最想就是神一個明確的答覆。到最後都是希望不求自己的意思。。。我知是絕不容易！

再會！

弟兄，自從知道你要離開另找方向後。我的心情實在一直向下。過去幾年的時間，你教曉我怎樣先算做以聖經作為生命的核心；怎樣先算對神話語的執著；應該以什麼的態度去事奉。你實在是我在孤獨事奉中的密友及兄弟。對於你的離去，實在不捨，但年輕的你也是應該放眼世界，再去豐富自己，開放更瞭濶的視野。

弟兄，相信他日一定再會！一路好走，願神繼續同你走每一段路。

Spirit

"He who works with his hands is a laborer. He who works with his hands and his head is a craftsman. He who works with his hands and his head and his heart is an artist."

~ St. Francis, religious leader

However, God needs us one more thing which is to serve him with our spirit.