Thanks for the message...thanks God

3 nights of 培靈會 had gone...the messages are still hanging around. Dr. Choi was one of my farvorite speaker not only because of his insight and the speeching skill, but his transparency life of living. There are too many people can speak, but not everyone can do according their words. Dr. Choi used his life as an offering to God...he did what he say.

I am working on the review on those 3 nights...I need to drop down something that really helping me to jump over the border and enlarge my spiritual view. God is my personal Lord, but God also is the Lord of the nation, the world, and the entire universe...the whole creations.

Goodness...Justice...Integrity....the elements that help me to reflect the light of the Lord of the light.

Let there be light...lighten up the workplace....oh God my Lord, please give me your wisdom and strengthen my soul, so that I will stand firmly on your name and protect your name with all I have.

Vision + Action = Mission

培靈會...go meet with God. It was a good message, even though Dr. Choi used more than an hour to finish his introduction and saving the rest on Today and Sat meeting, but it was a good time for me to rethink my life once again.

Dr. Choi mentioned quite a few times on "不再一樣". At first our (Christian) is different when we rebuild the relationship with God. "The consequence (ending) will drive the way we live", if I know what is going on next 50 years, 10 years, 1 year, 1 month, 1 week, or next moment, then the way of living will definely be changed. Also, if we believe that human death is like a dead of a light bulb nothing is going to happen, then that person will live in the very moment without hope and secruity. Our motivation is driven by the hope of eternity. Thanks God my Lord, this is my strength and my hope...faith, hope, and love...the elements work mutually.

Also, vision without action is illusion. I am quite stubborn with the vision in my service area. If I can't see there is a vision (at least the reason of doing it) for that particular ministry, I rarely find my part on that. But there come the challenge, despite the vision, do I take action thoroughfully. Hey man, my action will reflect the faith to God, and vision need action to be complete, right? My Lord, please motivate me and become a "action man" with a vision. May Your Spirit work within me and I will only follow your guidance alone.

Expect more things to rethink about the ministry that I am working on...Dr. Choi spent 30 years on youth ministry...his life is an action figure of a servant...add oil.

因為要去, 所以才去?! 培靈會...go meet with God

培靈會...once in year, the program is well-planned and repeat it yearly. I guess most of the fellowship's program is going to that meeting. Would there be the same amount of bros/sis show up without the pre-set program? Is the meeting becomes "routine" for me? I go because I do need to go? What do I expect to get from the meeting?? Is that only a "micro-wave" heating effect (easy to heat and easy to get cold)??? Is that a "powerful" (not bored) preacher????

While I am rethinking of those question on my mind...I realize that I just want to listen what God is trying to talk to me. Also, a peaceful time with God my Lord. That's all...not too much anticipation and hoping to get a big "revival" in the revival meeting...God will have His own plan and according to His will. Not necessary to have revival in a revival meeting...that's not a strict formula. Open my heart and let God's word works inside me, not the meeting which drive me.

The Glory of the Cross...The backlight is LOVE

When I am pasting another day of my life, I will experience more and more things. Remember Alan my ex-boss, told me about the 80/20 rules, that rule may be applied to measure the sadness and happiness ratio in life. Is about 80% the things in life is happy, or the other way round.

In a Christian life, we should be more happier than anyone who hasn't tasted the sweetness of accepting the Holy one, at least this is what apostle Paul told us. How can we be joyful all the time? Tons of things are popping up around us in every moment, world threatens, political changes, social tragedies, issues among family, friends, and bros/sis. How many things in those catergories are happy and sad. So what bible told us is insufficient to do...too hard to apply in life???

I think LOVE is the key here for me to be joyful.

Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love dos not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. 1 Cor. 13:4-7

Indeed, His LOVE gives me courage to talk, to work, to serve and to love. Without His precious love, 100% of the things on earth is dirty and awkful. I can love because my Lord taugth me what is the REAL LOVE. Things surround me will not change, but my Lord already shown me how to deal with it. Thank you my Lord, He demonsrated His Love for us in this; While we were still sinners, Christ died for us. That is the reason I can love others, that's the motivation of loving my neigthbours as myself.

Prayer: Oh Lord, please continue to teach me how love more. You poured out your life to save the sinners from death, may the glory of the cross can be shine through the darkest part of my soul, cleans my soul once again by the power of your salvation. Teach me how to see things through your eyes.

Turn my eyes upon Jesus

Look through in His wonderful face

and the things on earth will go strangely dim

in the light of His Glory and Grace

Pre-"Two become one"...Not already and not yet...But soon

Really thanks God to provide me such a pretty, lovely and beautiful 未婚妻. We had been together for 9 years, when I look back to those past years, God gave us a lot of grace and blessing. Not everything we went through is beautiful and sweet, in fact, it was half sweet and half bitter.


When two different people come together, the differences among the two of us will bring us a dancing lesson for two people who never stepped into a 舞臺 before. Sometime it could become a little battlefield. Thanks you our God and our Lord, He bring us together through different dancing lessons. Firstly, we really step on each other and was really out of rhythms. After the lessons of communication, understanding, considering, and forgiving, we advance to another level of dancing. Those lessons are really helping us to come together and realize we are completely different creation of God, but the biggest lesson that God taught us is LOVE. HE shown us how to love...love with scarification.


Thanks God that He had given us a very close 價值觀 (Value). I didn't realize the importance of it before, but it really influence the relationship between us and God as well.


Uncountable thanks need to say to the Almighty one. Pray that He will continue to guide and teach us in everyday.

Only God can make thing (plants) grow

不經不覺 I am with Daniel fellowship for more than 2 years. It is not easy to measure what is the outcome throughout the time that I spent in this fellowship. Especially when I firstly joined the fellowship, I saw those guys shown up every week, Me and Andrew kept reminding them how good you can be when you accept Him as your savior, however, not too many people feel interested and willing to share what is their burdens and struggles.


Things did change recently. Last night, A&W. raised out a very quality question about the truth of the bible. He said bible is formed by different people...and how do you tell the real meaning and it can be contradict to itself. It was a big surprise for me indeed, I am not saying that the question itself, in fact, I really appreciated they finally came out with some question that is related to the bible and biblical topic, in the extent, they start to share with their heart. The question is not the question, even though I answer the question in detail, but it didn't really satisfy his "real" need in the heart. That question only reflect a piece real and core question in his heart...but...he ask the question sincerely, and that will lead me to know the "real" question in his heart and what did he need.


I encourage them to share more and ask as many question as they want, but it has to be coming from their heart...not the misleading question.


Oh Lord, you are the one who know their needs, may I can have the wisdom to understand their needs, burdens and struggles...Please give me your guidance and vision, so that I can follow your way. Pray for Andrew and I, use us as your precious container and be the blessing to the others. Amen!

Sunshine, cloudy, rainly day...God still with us!

If God is giving me something that is not my will, is that mean He is away from me? If God didn't listen my prayer (even though it seems very "right"), is that show God do not love me?


Yesterday, Me and Jenny had taken wedding photos in the afternoon. The weather was not very impressing in the past 2 days, remember on Saturday, while we were driving in downtown, we saw the "ice raining". It was quit bad, Carol and Tony also concerned about the weather too. Indeed, I didn't worry a lot about the weather, but the reason of that is not I don't care about the picture (I really expecting it). That's only because the condition of tomorrow is not upon my wish. I pray that if this is God's will, please give us the good weather, the utlimate soverign is depending upon your will.

God will make a way!

Where there seem to be no way!

He works in way, we cannot see....

He will lead me to the "good" path, which I may not want to.

But thanks God...yesterday was amazing, we had everything we need except the cold temp. At first, it was a bit cloudy, then the sunlight just trying to break through the cloud. After a while, we have a wonderful sunlight with variable cloud. After while(S), we also can see the blue sky and the perfect sunlight. THANK YOU JESUS, the best #4 of the year Tony and Carol, and the prayer from Ian and Joanna...we took "FEW" nice pics (around 250 copies) and had a wonderful time.


Today's Verse: Deut 28:1-2If you fully obey the Lord your God and carefully follow all his commands I give you today, the Lord your God will set you high above all the nations on earths. All these blessings will come upon you and accompany you if you obey the Lord your God.


I truly didn't think that I had fully obey my Lord (life-time task), but I love HIM and He is the centerpiece of my life and my guidlines. And I believe He will make a way for us, even though we ended up with a rainly day, He is still the one who deserve all the praises and glory. Amen!

Is Jesus beautiful??? How about me???

Most of my female friends are fallen in love with the trendy stuffs, when they are still the OSAP students, they only buy something very affordable in outlet and never thought about buying an expensive stuffs (at least in my opinion). Sometimes, they will critize others' "crazy spending".


Few years later, after they went out from school and start working of couple years, things change! Back to the old days, when I was in the high school, I spent very unwisely and didn't even think is affordable or not. The only issue I care was the looking after I put that on my body. I could buy a jean and a pair of shoe for more than $200, only wear things with expensive brand name. Yeah...that's what I thought was suitable and trendy, also it represented myself as a "celebrity".


Things start to change after I turn to Christ, especially when I experience who He is and what did He do for the human being. Jesus didn't wear any Dunhill shirt and Armani jeans with a pair of special edition of Nike shoe, but in fact, He looks even better than anythings in the world. Yes, I think He did...not only because He is God, but also He demonstrated how to love with all His heart and soul, and strength.


The elements that determine the physcial appearance (how do I look) is it by the clothing that I put on? By the bag that you use? The watch that you have on my wrist? Yes, that would only give me the look of my surface. I also need to focus on how to make my INNER ONE looks pretty as well. Let cleans the dust and dirty, also give it a new dress and good look.


Pray that God open my eyes and focusing more on Him. Bless the relationship with you...can always more closer to You and serve you alone.

Sunday School....a piece of "sweet" and "healthy" cake

Righteousness is doing the right thing...is all about the relationship with God...

Never really think about God's righteousness in this aspect. Today's Sunday school really benefit to my life and set a really good picture for my serving direction. How can I proclaim that I love God without loving others and in the extent of loving the world (the public and the need).

Although, we can be righteous in front of God's eyes by faith alone, not by morality and any other things. But like what James said about the faith "what good is it, my brothers, if a man claims to have faith but has no deeds? Can such faith save him?" "faith by itself, if it is not accompanied by action, is dead." Hey man, is that a simplest verse to understand...in order to make my life complete. Deed is not the thing to save me from eternal death, but it will show how much I love Him.


Oh Heavenly Father, give me more strength and love to love. Serve others and NOT only the one I love, but to the one who needs and waiting to be served. Ian pointed out a very good conclusion in the class, if I have any trouble to love either people and the world, then there must be something wrong toward the relationship with God.

Sunday school homework...a piece of "苦" 蛋糕???

Sunday school's homework is not a very warm word, because it required a small amount of time out from the leisure in order to complete it. I couldn't remember the last time I gave out an assignment or homework to my class. This time, Ian gave out a homework to us in the class of Amos. He ask us to write what is righteous. Honestly, the topics seems very easy, but it can be very complicated when I think of God's righteous and social righteous.


I started the homework surprisingly earlier than ususal, since last Sunday the same day that I recieved the topics. The same day that I had gone through a small revival and promise God to re-prioritize the things that He does want me to do. I'd never spent so much time on a Sunday school homework and start right after I recieved (even when I was teaching the class). Pray that this will not a flash light and the fire ended right after it grew.


I really treasure and like the time that I spent on thinking the topics and reading the reference material. Also,it is so good that I can put away the "homework" from PSP and work on the biblical things. Thanks God to give me back the sovereign of my life. I don't think that I will never touch PSP again, but the priority is really not that high anymore. I used to spend 2 hours a day for that, but now...it need to be adjusted...instead of playing that, I should drop down the precious moment that I had walked with Jesus Christ in my daily life. Pray that I will consistenly keep this habit.

Love with all your heart and with all your soul...(simply everything)

Remember a month ago, I saw a man on a wheele chair who was climbing up to a slope near Scarborough Town Centre. I am a healthy man with 2 arms and 2 legs, stood there and had been struggling with helping or not helping. So many excuses came up to persuade myself of not going to give a handly and easy favor to a man who needed assistance. It is too far away (around 50m), not sure that man will accept my help, he may feel offended...etc. Because of those stupid excuses, I gave up a opportunity to give a hand to someone who needs it.


After all, I felt very guilty from the deep of my heart, also, the I truely hear the blame from Holy Spirit by pointing out a bunch of verses in the book of Gospel (Jesus's teaching and parable-matt 5:38-42, 1 John 3:18). Indeed, the blame from Holy Spirit is really really really really not a good thing and I am so regret of what I had done...like Edmund said "the non-decided decision". I decided not to give a help...and then I confessed to God and really promised that next time I will go without hesitation. All of the sudden, I hated the word "next time", 下次, tomorrow, next chance...I need to get rid of those words and need to treasure the presence.


Yesterday, when I was busing home from 0.75 day-off, I saw a lady puzzling about the direction and she even seem more puzzle after she talk to the bus driver. At the same time, I needed to take off at Bur Oak and heading back home. That lady was also taking off right after me. She was very puzzling about where she is going. After I walked for a few steps, the wheelchair incident flashed in...then I walked back to see where she is heading. Eventually, she is heading to Yee Hong, but she didn't know the direction. Hey wasn't that a simple question for me...if I didn't turn back, I would miss another chance and go through the same struggle again. Thanks God...although it was a small incident, but it just help me to apply the verse " Love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your strength." Deu6:5

Got Sick

I had been sick for 3 days, it is really not a good thing for a man who supposed to be very healthy and everytime he won't got sick for more than a day, plus no pill is needed. Is that man getting older and too many comparison to the past will make that man even older than he should be???

Today, I felt quit well when I woke up in the morning, so obviously I won't dare to stay home and take another day off. Since I picked up my first full time job, I rarely picked up a sick day off. It just very uncomfortable and have a feeling that only "weak" person will take that to escape from work. This week...I had already taken 1.75 day off because of the sickness. Today I left is not mainly on my illness but the "peer pressure" from work. The working culture in the main stream is quit difference to the place I've worked before. My peer preferred the sick person to stay away from work and getting rest, instead of spreading out the germs to the rest of the people in the office. Some of the colleague who rarely talk with you and today they will start the conversation with your illness...indeed I sense a big concern about my illness had been raised out.

Alan used to say "the much you can be elasticized in the workplace, the much you can succeed." I am not taking that as my "golden verse", but taking other's feeling into consideration. Eddie also mentioned that people who worked in the main stream are really concerned about the "illness" issue in the office...then...I...pack...and...go...

Got Sick

I had been sick for 3 days, it is really not a good thing for a man who supposed to be very healthy and everytime he won't got sick for more than a day, plus no pill is needed. Is that man getting older and too many comparison to the past will make that man even older than he should be???

Today, I felt quit well when I woke up in the morning, so obviously I won't dare to stay home and take another day off. Since I picked up my first full time job, I rarely picked up a sick day off. It just very uncomfortable and have a feeling that only "weak" person will take that to escape from work. This week...I had already taken 1.75 day off because of the sickness. Today I left is not mainly on my illness but the "peer pressure" from work. The working culture in the main stream is quit difference to the place I've worked before. My peer preferred the sick person to stay away from work and getting rest, instead of spreading out the germs to the rest of the people in the office. Some of the colleague who rarely talk with you and today they will start the conversation with your illness...indeed I sense a big concern about my illness had been raised out.

Alan used to say "the much you can be elasticized in the workplace, the much you can succeed." I am not taking that as my "golden verse", but taking other's feeling into consideration. Eddie also mentioned that people who worked in the main stream are really concerned about the "illness" issue in the office...then...I...pack...and...go...

Turn your eyes upon Jesus!!! (2006/10/02 07:25:31)

Thanks the Lord once again...it is quit a while that I had struggle with this issue. Love, care and serve, I finally "re-gain" it. Love is patient, love is kind...this is not the slogan and some "golden verse". It is the word with action and is most important thing of a servant of God. Let me not love with mouth and tongue but with ACTION. Rev Wong mentioned love with suffering and the examples from Edmund's sermon from the wedding - "arrow pig" (needs to sacrifice yourself for others), it really remind me to love others (not only the one who worth to love) with all my heart, soul and strength.

The hymn "Turn your eyes upon Jesus" came up when I was taking a shower.

Turn your eyes upon jesus,

look through in His wonderful face,

and the things on earth will grow strangely dim.

In the light of His Glory and Grace.

What is the focus in my eyes now??? What is the reason of serving??? How do I love others??? Is Jesus's love is the main reason of loving others???

That's a very good time for me to "re-think" my situation again, I spent a quality of quiet time by myself, read passages, listen to that hymn, and pour out my dirtness to God. Confess my thoughts, rebuild my purity of love to Christ alone, and reset my priority, at last, re-confirm the foundation of loving others. I had wasted too many times on playing games and unworthy stuffs...may God give me strength to get rid of the rest of the bad habits and become the good witness of Him. Finally, I humble down my pride...to re-focus my precious Jesus Chirst once again. Thank you Almighty God, once again He put everything together.